Do you ever have those days when you feel the the world is moving too fast and you can’t feel the seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and maybe years?
I’ve been feeling that for the past weeks. Is it old age or I just have so much in my head and I can’t catch up with it. I’ve got so many things to do small things like organise the wardrobe, catch up with my driving lessons but honestly when I look at it, I don’t have enough time. Or maybe even the lack of time management skills. Geez.
I can still remember very clearly the time when I was looking for a job after having Hayden. I even wrote inspiring entries which I’ve read this afternoon as well to refresh myself to how it felt. It feels so good. I remember having loads of plans, even back up plans just in case. I looked at life as a beautiful land of opportunities where anything can happen. And all the good feeling I have would actually reflect out and everyone could actually see it. I remember saying to myself that “Omg, whatever this is, this is working out for me.” God was my rock and I know for a fact in my heart that he still is and always will be. Maybe that’s One thing. I need to sort of reconnect with Him. Though I didn’t really know what was bothering me few minutes ago, can’t believe that I’d actually figure it out myself anyway so I’m going to keep typing.
Two. I remember posting stuff about confidence, inner peace and all about how to deal with situations. Wait you know what I love that check list, so let me share it with you.
Some signs and symptoms of inner peace:
🔗 A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than on fears based on past experiences.
🔗 An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.
🔗 A loss of interest in judging other people.
🔗 A loss of interest in judging self.
🔗 A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.
🔗 A loss of interest in conflict.
🔗 A loss of the ability to worry. (This is a very serious symptom.)
🔗 Frequent, overwhelming episodes of appreciation.
🔗 Contented feelings of connectedness with others and nature.
🔗 Frequent attacks of smiling.
🔗 An increasing tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen.
🔗 An increased susceptibility to the love extended by others as well as the
uncontrollable urge to extend it.
Well as much as I wanted to tick every point in the above list, I will be very honest with myself and even though a bit embarrassing, I’ll admit that most probably lost this vibe. And I do want it back.
Still thinking a lot at the moment 😁, and still loads to write but I’m going to take a break and get some drink at a local pub. Laters..
Oh wait, Three, CHANGE.
..So hello now again it’s actually a day and a half after I started typing. I’m sat by Kite beach now here in Jumeirah with a bit of a view of the Burj Al Arab which I’m going to share. Nice day. Anyway, I spoke to Brian and one of my best friends Maggie about my concerns and i do feel a lot better but of course I’m gna carry on with the entry. 😊
Beach day with my love.
Ok, so I had to identify the causes of these negative vibes that stresses and drains me out and try to get rid if them and also make a few changes in the way I think, see things and deal with things, but I’m going to say gradually.
✖️ Toxic people – when I spoke to someone about it, she said that I’m the CEO of my life and I can remove people from it that only disturb my peace and she’s right. It’s kind of hard to actually do because this person is part of the group. Maybe when I get the time I’d write about how this person started to being a source of negative energy but I think that’s lingering on something unimportant and just something I need to shake off. Honestly, no matter how much patience I had for her for the countless times she’s pressed my buttons, it already came to a point that I’ve stayed as far away as possible but even the small doses of her during special occasions was unbearable. And I don’t want this kind of person in my life who only causes trouble every other time. Honesty, sometimes I even find myself reading stuff online on how to get rid of those kind of people haha.. It has been frustrating for sometime now. ( I’ll share one of the articles I’ve read on the next entry.)
✖️ Negative thoughts and doubts – honestly I once mastered the art of positive thinking and see the good in everything and when you give this kind of energy out to the world it actually gives it to you back, 10 times. 😊 I need to shake those off and the solution is practice. I might need to revisit entries I’ve posted about if years ago and start from there. And I’m sure in time I’ll get there.
Anyways, I don’t want to focus on those anymore and just focus on how I can make it better. Whew! It’s so good to blog again!